Notions (My Muse)

(This is a piece, I wrote about a month ago and I've been chickening out of posting it. Now, I'm like, Fuck that! Do that which is pushing your boundaries)

It was my first time in the gathering
I felt like I was thrown in wolves pack
You stood up
There was this aggressiveness that you exuded
You were all speeches and spices
You were all fierceness and fairness
All strict and discipline
Saying that I was mesmerized by you is an understatement
My eyes were following you around the room
I was watching your steps and interaction with people
I wanted to know you
I wanted you to know me
Actually, I hadn't noticed the gentleness about you
You only reminded me of tall, dark and handsome
Both in the literal and figurative sense
Tall. Dark. Handsome
I wanted all
I wanted it all
I didn't know how that will happen
I wanted to know your name
I wanted to know what you did
I wanted everything
Still want everything

On another day, I saw you
You were walking towards an auditorium
I was trailing behind you
I wanted to hear what you were talking
It was a friendly and light conversation
Surprisingly, you didn't sound as fierce as I had always seen in formal gatherings
I wanted to speak to you
I didn't
I walked pass
I didn't greet, no Hi

Again I saw you
I hadn't realised you were playful till that day
I never expected it
I wanted you even more then
But I couldn't, couldn't have you

You were checking names
And it got to my turn
You were smiling and gently, with smiles and all, you asked for my name
I didn't say anything
That was the first time I really noticed your gentleness
I showed where it was on the list
You called me by name
I loved it
Really loved it
I wished you will be calling me all the time
Still wish you'd call me

Today, I saw you
I had been thinking about you
Your charisma
Your carriage
About You
I was walking with my group of friends
And I saw you
My heart skipped, skipped once again
I didn't know what to do
But I wanted you to notice me
I averted my eyes
But I felt your wave
You were smiling at me
I couldn't believe it
I waved back with a huge smile
And you waved again
For you to recognize me
Even if you didn't know my name was enough
It is enough, I guess
You, You!
You are IT

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