On Killer Inside: The Mind of Aaron Hernandez


Netflix is recommending this documentary to me again. I always feel sorry for this dude whenever I remember him. He was a successful football player with so much potential.

He is gay, so much so he hated that himself. Like he'd messed around with his best friend in high school. Continued denying that part of him cos in his mind macho men aren't supposed to be gay. Eventually started doing drugs. Later on, killed some people cos he wasn't controlling his anger.

The person he was even indicted for was a colleague in the game. I believe the guy discovered he was bisexual, so Aaron was scared he was going to be outed.

And when he finally got incarcerated, he eventually embraced his gayness and got himself a twink boyfriend in jail. But I don't think he ever got over his internalised homophobia. He later ended his life in jail.

Quite a sad story. To think he was so good, he helped aid his team to participate in the Super bowl. Very very sad


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