Notions (Cramps)

As usual like every other month, I'm wondering "why can't I just freeze these damn eggs?"

Why on earth am I going through this horrendous ordeal, every single month? 

Why can't I press pause for the mean time, then when I am ready to take in, I'd activate the ovulation?

Why?

A pain so atrocious unlike any other. At least the others have what induce them, but this? You are on your own and the mofo is inflicting pain on you.

It's even worse for people theirs stretch to 3-4 days but those of us that are lucky to suffer for a day, I can't emphasize on how terrible this shit is.

You are lying down, but you are so distressed. Standing is a no-no cos you'd be feeling dizzy. You can choose to squat but your stomach is constricting.

You try yoga, child pose et.al, no show

You drink scathing hot water, press more onto your belly

You down pills

You're numb and agitated at the same time

You try to sleep, but that is not forthcoming

You roll over the bed, trying to find a position best for you, but anytime you remotely feel relieved, shit hits on like a sledgehammer

You curl like a foetus (cos you're feeling helpless like one)

You stool every now and then

Excreting all that is in your stomach

You make no attempt to eat cos even the smell of food is nauseating

The scent of just about anything makes you want to puke

Even at that, you keep retching on an already empty stomach

You're stuck with thinking, "God, why exactly am I going through this? Who on this earth did I offend?"

You hear worse news, "Those who have cramps have more labour pains"

You reevaluate the very idea of childbearing

Other options:  epidural anaesthesia

Through it all, you're silently pleading that you fall asleep

That a dose of analgesia be injected so that you go spend your day as usual

Or better still that the day ends so that it will be all over

And when you finally succeed on surviving the day of pain, you set a reminder

Quietly counting down to the next month when you'd experience your constant throes.

If there's anything I'm desperately waiting to be developed, it's the whole pausing of ovulation

I've seen something about them in movies, I don't know if they are in existence now. But by Jah, I sure hope so.

But till then,

Shit!