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Last year, I was bemoaning my fate on if I'm even a good enough software developer. There was this guy I was interning with and my goodness Lord, I wanted to quit every single day. My mental health was in shambles. And truthfully, he was a better developer than I was but his attitude was shitty. So when the internship was about to end and they said they would be retaining only one person, I already concluded I'd be let go cos he was obviously better. So I started looking for other gigs on time. But guess what, I was the one retained. I literally even told them that I had another role so I wouldn't be dedicating 100% and they told me that's fine, we just want you on our team. It's really then that I understood the importance of attitude at work. Cos that guy was annoying to everyone. He was nitpicking both the designers oo, fellow frontend people and even backend guys. Smh. Anyways, I'm glad I stayed back cos now I'm learning flutter for mobile development an

I was watching House MD, a Hollywood medical series and it dawned on me on why older series seem so much better than recent movies. Apart from the actors being into the roles, characters were allowed to have flaws in older series. Like this House MD, the male lead has no filter, one other guy has a superiority complex going on, the female lead is self righteous, and the other guy is quite selfish. These make their behaviours unique and realistic. Unlike these days where the characters have to be liberal and should say "all the right woke things." Which rids the individuality and complexity of different characters. I'm certain that House MD series would have been cancelled if it was aired these days but it ran for 8 seasons from 2004-2012. Really surprised I didn't know about it prior to now.

I don't even know if it is this Mr Henry Wigwe's death but I'm less and less aspiring to be at the highest echelon of this career thingy. Cos this life is all a journey to death. And death doesn't ask for permission when it comes knocking. And we talk a lot about legacy but the term is just being remembered which to some large extent, is fueled by ego.  Plus, no matter how impactful you are, not everyone will remember your legacy. Hell, there are still some people that don't know Jesus Christ. And many more others that don't know Michael Jackson. I'd watched the docu-series of Alexander the Great, and his influence then made people see him as a demigod. But even now, only a few lore geeks remember him. We are dust, and unto dust we shall return according to Genesis 3:19 . So it becomes a question of "do I want to be remembered by the whole world? Or am I comfortable with just being known by my friends." We all end up being forgotten at the end of i

  Naval and Omotoyosi Ogunbanwo made me start considering tech very seriously. But the last straw on the camel's back that made me abandon my masters in history prospects was (ironically research). I scoured the internet, for career progression for someone studying history. Nothing really positive. Infact, even Caucasians themselves said they are not seeing any jobs. Those that got employed at museum said they did art history, so archaeology graduates have better chances of placements than pure history. I visited Reddit, Quora and the end goal usually ultimately ends up as a professor, of which I am not the most patient person for it. I then searched career progression of programming and unless Jesus Christ comes down today, they'll always be need for programmers, even with the A.I.  I said, even if maths is a must, I'll go back and learn. It's not as if I was not good at maths before. Anyways, I am not earning as much as I'd like, but I am where i am supposed to be

 When I joined rotaract, I was not able to afford the events. But anytime members return from their trips to give updates, they're always like "you've not experienced the real rotaract until you've attended these events." Then, they'd inadvertently add that "Whatever happens at X and X stays there" Now for someone like me, I know I'm not missing anything but I figured, I could give the benefit of doubt. Have the so called experience. I eventually saved up for one. And it confirmed my suspicions. Infact, I would have preferred I stayed back and gisted till morning with my roommates.  My best experiences in Unn are watching Shadow Hunters and 13 Reasons Why with Collete, in my first year, or with when I chatted the whole of midnight with Mae-Ri in my second year, doing skincare mixtures with Olivia, and my Chiamaka roommates. Or going to Ifechukwu and Adaeze's house to dance, or in my hostel with Chimela recording or sleepover at Amanda's h

  Anytime I remember this lady, I'm resolute in my decision that "never ever am I going to be protesting for issues concerning men, Chukwu ajụ" So basically, this babe was among those championing for Black Lives Matter, especially for the killings of black American men. And after a particular day's protest, the same black men she was voicing for raped her to death and dumped her in a trashcan. Ụmụ Chineke, a dustbin. This was in 2020 during that George Floyd murder and the subsequent protests that ensued. After that and subsequently the gists I read on twitter on women getting groped when EndSARS Lagos started, I was vehement that I wasn't going anywhere for East own. Throughout History, from the lores of Achilles of Greek, to the time of David in the bible, to Alexander the Great of Macedonia, to Mark Antony of Rome, to The World Wars, Vietnam Wars, Nigeria-Biafra war, men always take women as spoils of war.  One of the history that has painted me the most was th

  On Yesterday's episode of this career. I started off the day with No 1. By 10am when I'd left for market, I was at No 4. Came back and made ofe onugbu and ofe ọra. During my standup at 4pm, I was at No. 5 and gave a long tailed excuse on the bugs I had. I did say turn on my laptop again. Watched kdrama afterwards. Read some chapters in a historical fiction just before bed.  Woke up this morning and it was actually whilst doing my chores, that I was mentally walking through the code and possible solutions. Opened my laptop by 10am again, looked at the code again for what I'd been thinking earlier, and resolved the issue in 10 minutes. Now, I'm at No 8 and all is good again.  As for no 9, maybe next year I will be audacious enough to think that 

  I just finished Gyeongsang Creature and it was intense. Not the kind of series I usually watch but it's really really good. Solid 9/10 if not more. I pray kdramas continue their quality of production forever. I did read somewhere that Hollywood was made for male gaze while Kdrama was made for female gaze. There is a reason Bridgerton is popular and gets all the hype. They're not the first historical romance fiction adapted to movies. But when something is written for women, you just know it.  In South Korea, about 90% of scriptwriters are women. From the romcom that people look on with derision, to the action and thriller dramas elitists swear are better to watch. From City Hunter, The Uncanny Counter, Vagabond, Arthdal Chronicles, Six flying dragons, Sweet Him, the scripts were written by women. Even the newly released Gyeongsang Creature. In fact, it was the same woman that wrote Gyeongsang Creature that also wrote Dr. Romantic 1, 2 and 3.  With that said, I just might look

What if you die? So, won't we all die? We are literally born to die. My own is this, if you literally give me $10 million dollars now, it's not changing a single thing about my lifestyle. The most I will do with it is japa immediately and put the rest in index funds. It won't stop me from wearing the same knicker I bought in my second year. I'm building up my minimalism philosophy and not wanting material things (except perfume and skincare). I met PS5 when I came to my brother's house since December 2022 and I haven't been curious enough to even play the game. And we usually have light 24hrs a day.  The most I would indulge in is boarding flight to the east and back to visit my friends at whim. I don't really have desire to go to Maldives or any aesthetic place (unless it's a group travel). It's not on my bucket list. We all want different things. Reading a book by an author that writes exceptionally well makes me high, I can't explain it. I don

Can I tell my father about these religious stuffs I write? Nọdụ nụ ebe ahụ. I actually spoke with my father back in 2021 and told him I am not going to be following him to the ministry he goes to anymore. That I don't like the place. It makes me uncomfortable and I'm not learning anything from the prophet. That I can only manage Sunday service at our Anglican church. This was when I haven't made a single cent to my name. My father shook his head but said "well, it's your life. You are now an adult so you can do whatever." Afterall, I'd also told him before that cooking is not what I like to do but I have to do it anyways since I'm in his house. I'm sure he probably thought, 'that girl dị somehow and needs prayers.' But on the other hand, I've never done anything to shame the Anikwenze name. I get good grades. I'm not promiscuous nor materialistic. I don't scam him with academics money. I don't smoke. I am a teetotaler. He of

 We always think we are smart. That we could never be under the manipulation of these men of God. It's that same condescension people give others in abusive marriages, 'why can't you just leave?' So let me pose the question to you as a Christian. Why haven't you left the church? No be cos you are scared of hell??? If there was no hell fire, will you still be a Christian? Do you fornicate without  begging God for forgiveness that you have sinned? You can't right? Because you've been indoctrinated that if you die now after that orgasm and you are not a married person, straight to hell fire. Now let's bring it back to the disciples of these man. These people were 16, 17 year old teens when they began the indoctrination. How were you when you were 16? Yes you? Did you have the emotional capacity you have now? Hell, you even have the internet now with feminists, and every other person telling you your worth that you are enough. These kids were enslaved in 200

In this whole cooking matter, the only things I'll say is: I've woken up by 4am (several times) to cook beans for my younger siblings to take to school. And I hated every second of that alarm ringing and me trudging to the kitchen to make their lunch for school. But I didn't have the luxury not to be up that early to prep meals. Same with the Mummy Zee woman. Her intent tho was that she didn't want another woman who brings lunch to snatch her husband. Good for her for taking the steps she deems fit to claim her man and save her marriage. She was a stay at home mother before the benevolence of twitter people. She didn't have a fridge beforehand. That could also explain the need to wake up that early daily. You could even argue that it's jealousy streak that made her want to covet her man. When kdrama actors do it, it's romantic. When a Nigerian woman does it, it's suffering in marriage by feminists? I don't blame the feminists for jumping to that conc

I'm never going to be that haggling guru in the market or the mom that people brag that they can price for Africa. And here are the reasons. So, when I got into copywriting , I'd learnt that expensive means "what a customer thinks something is worth." So if someone is buying a Hermes bag for 15k dollars, then they believe the money is worth it, not really because the material of the bag. Understanding this has really been crucial to how I think of spending. So suppose I go to market and I get something for 10k naira. And somehow, I hear that the cost at other places is actually 6k, I don't allow it to bother me because I bought it at so and so price as it's worth that 10k to me. Then, I also learnt from twitter, that you should also divide the price you got for something with how many days/times you have to use it. So whether it's forgoing market to do bend down select for 1500 naira casual shorts, I'd rather get it for 3k a piece online.  Considering

First thing I did when I decided I'd stop going to church in 2018 was ask myself, "So if no church, it means i don't care about hellfire anymore abi?" The second thing I asked myself was "so what's your defence on being homophobic away from the church?" Culture? Like I care about ordaining same culture that believed in killing twins So I just read up on it and just freed my mind from thinking it's a sin or something. And now, I actually can't believe I ever was homophobic. I mean, how does it concern me whether 2 men or 2 women decide they'd want to be with each other? Like how? Even if your crush eventually turns out gay, statistics show you're likely compatible with dozens other people.  I recently discovered that Tim Cook, Apple's CEO is gay. Same with Sam Altman, Open AI (chatGPT parent company) is gay. It's just their business. No one gives a damn if you're straight. So more awareness and openness has to be done. I guess

  If I now say I read 3 books on January 1st, twitter people will literally come for my head. But I did. And the novels were at least 300 pages each. Read from morning till like 2am midnight. I didn't want to deal with the whole new year fanfare and the entire end of the year reviews that were on twitter. It's actually funny how people think it's not feasible especially since we also binge 8 episodes series under one day. Ọ bụrụ zie reading one book that's unattainable. Smh It's cos we've been used to reading for academics, so anything related to books, people expect you to recall everything. Nobody cares if they don't remember the scenes from Bridgerton or even Avengers. Personally, I read books primarily for the author's writing style. If the author doesn't have way with words, I'm dropping the book with immediate alacrity.  That's why I absolutely love Tal Bauer's works. His writing style is absolutely beautiful. Like, make you stay a

  💯 true Considering my lack of computer science background, I should be really really happy that I have a few gigs that pay me, I work remotely, and my only reasonable monthly bill is data subscription. However, you just see yourself being like: "This other person that started programming in 2023 got a remote job that pays in dollars. Or the other person got into a FAANG company." It's a crazy slippery slope. And if you're not aware of when you're doing that comparison, it might make you feel exceedingly terrible about your pace.