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I hadn't fully understood the power of referrals before now. Just one random day, my manager told me, "Chinenye, are you free for a gig?" I hopped on the call with the team. They introduced the project to me, told me about their professional experience and what my role would be. Then, they asked me to tell them my story about my background in tech. And that's all. No coding tests or take home assessment. No asking me to show them my GitHub. Just chatted with them. It was after the chat that they requested for my CV. They just took the words of the guy that referred me and believed that I can do the job. Considering the imposter syndrome I have in this tech thing, this was crazy validation. My prayers in 2024 is "God abeg, let people to continue speaking for me in my absence. Let opportunities come my way." Happy New year, children of God

I've never felt this relieved from a contract being over. Like I would be hyperventilating whenever I open my messages. And even worse, meetings were everyday. And it was only 3 weeks in that I figured I wasn't paid enough for this role to be this intensive. My plan was to quit then but I figured I'd be weird to leave after only a month. That's when I really came to the realization that it's actually this kind of justification that people in abusive marriages probably stay back, "I've been married for only 1 year, how I can just quit like that?" So, I'd been counting down to the 3 months mark from that third week. Anyways, the summary of my rant is that I'd bookmarked this perfume since June and my frugal self has been trying to justify why I need to purchase it and this was a great opportunity to just reward myself for persevering these months It smells so good, it's giving Cookie Lyon in Empire.

I'd read of Decision fatigue in a book (I think it's in Jeff Bezos annual report to his investors or so), that the human brain uses same energy when making business decisions, and other small things. Your brain gets tired whether you're thinking of the right strategy in your business or when when choosing things like food to eat, cloth to wear, laundry, cleaning etc. I guess that's among the reasons I love the idea of bulk cooking. The 3 soups I'd cooked since October just finished today. And we have it every night. So I never think of what should be for dinner. I do intermittent fasting, so I don't think of lunch. Same with hair. Just barb once and forget all about it and why I'm also bullish on outsourcing eventually. I need as much mental freedom to be able to understand programming concepts as I don't have an engineering nor analytical education background. So I can't be exerting my brain thinking about mundane things. That would just induce bra

After succumbing myself to the heartbreaking documentary of My Lover: My Killer, I just had to watch a Makjang drama, Perfect Marriage Revenge to relax. Makjang dramas are top tier in kdramaland. They are so dramatic, vengeful, over the top, crazy twists that don't even make sense. But that's the appeal, lmao. The storylines are so extra. They're like soap operas and melodrama, but so much better. For the characters? Best believe you'll hate the antagonists with vigor. My top recommendations: Penthouse Perfect marriage Revenge World of the married Remarriages and Desire Pandora: Beneath the paradise One, the woman Sky Castle

Whenever you hear tales of people in abusive relationships, we like to say, "It can never be me." Nne, it can absolutely ever be you. The concept of "It can never be me" emanates from that feeling of superiority over others. "They're not smart enough like me. They're dumb. I know better and I can smell bullshit from miles away." Which is valid right? Then, I watched 16 episodes of this documentary, "My lover, My killer" and anyone, absolutely anyone can be a victim. Now, you will say, "I will just leave. The first time he lays hand on me, I'm getting out with immediate alacrity." I concur. But the women in this documentary also moved on. And they still got murdered. One in 4 UK women are victims of domestic violence. I don't even want to think of Nigeria statistics. I tried so hard to garner similarities between women that'd have made them more susceptible to being victims, I found none. Their traits varied from inde

  Welcome to Samdalri borrows elements from Hometown Cha Cha Cha, The Good Bad Mother, Lovestruck in the city, Our Beloved Summer, Forecasting Love and weather into a brilliant premise and it seems fun. Both leads have really strong screen presence.  Someone said if Ji Chang Wook had been in Forecasting Love and Weather, she'd have managed to get past 2 episodes and I concur absolutely. I haven't gotten to half of episode 1 and I have managed to watch it 3 or 4 times. More so, since it's the same director of FLAW and this Welcome to Samdalri. Which supports my theory, the Forecasting Love and Weather was boring because of the leads do not have chemistry. Especially that male lead, Song Kang. He was the lead in Nevertheless and I could not watch that as well. And guess what, he is the same male lead in this my demon and after 2 episodes, I don tire for him. I had said that he looks more like a kpop artist than an actor and I didn't expect much going into that My Demon.

I always say that Doctors are the representative of God on earth. But what happens when one doctor feels himself closest to God and tries to play God? That's what went down in this documentary. This man had a promising research. He was creating plastic windpipes which would be coated with the stem cells of the patients and replace for those with ailments. The idea was that the stem cells would be able to grow as they're coated on the plastic. He actually performed surgery on 8 patients. Now, the premise of this research sounded amazing. I mean, it had the potential to save thousands of lives. And we should be expectant that this was to be experimented even more is to have better results right?  Wrong!  Turns out everything he claimed he researched were fake. All the patients died save for one that went back and removed the plastic windpipe. The shocking part? This man did not test his research on animals first. He dove straight to inserting it in humans. What is even more crazy

  If these perfumes were movie characters, who would they be? Goddess by Beguile by Oma - Tully Harts, Firefly Lane. Seduction by Beguile by Oma - Jessica Pearson, Suits. Heibah - Donna Paulsen, Suits and Cookie Lyon, Empire Daisy Love by Marc Jacobs - Elle Woods, Legally Blonde and Caroline Forbes, Vampire Diaries  Versace Yellow Diamond Intense - Olivia Pope, Scandal and Mary Jane Paul, Being Mary Jane   Color me pink - Annalise Keating, How to Get away with Murder and Claire Underwood, House of Cards

  God, I was 30 minutes in the first episode of this documentary and felt tears on my cheeks. I can't even begin to explain the torture this boy went through These evil people were offing cigarette butts on his body. He has cuts on his groin area. He has cut marks all over. He'd been shot with a BB gun. His teeth had fallen off. Like they've hit him so many times that when you touch his head, you don't feel smoothness you'd find on your head. His are dented and crunchy. He can't open his full mouth. His legs have abrasions cos of being dragged and ligament issues of being tied up a lot. There is missing skin on his neck because of burn marks and he had black eyes. And he was only 8 year old in all these. And the people inflicting this is his mother and her boyfriend. He was always locked in a cupboard in his womb donor's room. No bed, inside that cupboard that is usually inside the kitchen under the sink, that's where he slept. And this evil man handcuff

Imagine being an only child who your parents confided that they used a donor, and you've always wanted 1 or 2 siblings. Eventually one day, you do an ancestry test and suddenly you have over 94 half siblings from the same man, and still counting. That's what went down in this documentary. This doctor was using his sperm to inseminate women, without their consent. When other donors gove their sperm, this man will swap that sample with his. Here is the sick part about this. Just as the women wait to be inseminated in the exam room, this man will go to his office and jerk off. Now following the endorphins sans post nut clarity, this man will use that same sperm and put in these women.  They didn't even know ya foduzie giving consent. And this man has been doing this for decades. Most children who did the tests were in 25miles of each other. Heck, two of the siblings were even friends. So you don't even know if you'd dated or had sex with your sibling before. In fact,

    I've been on a sorta documentary marathon which I suppose happens to me every once in a while. So this one is about Jeffery Epstein. His death trended then cos he supposedly committed suicide. And after watching this documentary, he definitely didn't commit any suicide. He was murdered.  Though not stated in this documentary of course, but the heinous crimes he'd done and the possibility that his trial will expose other powerful who obviously were involved in raping and sex trafficking of minors.  This documentary made me feel resigned. Like I was actually frustrated alongside the victims cos this was a powerful man. Even the FBI succumbed to his influence. Girls had been reporting since 1996. Police had been involved. But over and over, he proved he had the justice system in his pocket. The reason the victims even managed to garner an iota of justice for the second time was because of the #MeToo movement that spurred from social media. Cos this guy was literally evadin

  I tried to get into this movie because the it seems like a cute love story of someone finding her faith in God. Because the premise seemed so promising, the trailer was great and I love the trope, a movie star and a violinist. So ideally I was really really expecting a very interesting movie. But something was wrong just few minutes in. I just was not feeling the chemistry between the two characters no I think there was a glimmer of chemistry on there or just maybe it's because the actors are probably new actors. But generally there was just something missing. I don't know if it's the energy because it was definitely spark between the two actors but it just didn't glue me to continue watching. I mean it is supposed to be an emotional story, a heart tugging movie but I just ended up feeling kind of impersonal. I think maybe it's a new director or something. Which reemphasizes that it's always not about the story but also how the actors interpreted it, how the

  I've been watching a lot of documentaries and that's cos I'd spent the whole of last month and this month watching The Vampire Diaries, and I am still on the high of the Mystic Falls universe and needed something to mellow down. So back to this. I was actually team Johnny Depp during the trial. Because: 1. I was following critics online and in the eyes of the law of public opinion, everyone was team Johnny Depp.  2. Amber's body language just screamed acting. So watching this entire documentary now, I am not supporting support anyone again. Both are guilty as fuck. Johnny, was definitely abusive to her. On the other hand, she herself was also abusive to Johnny. The difference is that Amber definitely exaggerated many parts to get sympathy and possibly extort him. And she was recording him on drugs to use it against him. Like you said he used broken bottle to rape you and there are no records from the hospital that showed him the injuries from the sharp object? Seems s

  I always wondered how it's possible that people ostacrize their family members in church like what Jehovah witness people do but watching this documentary really exposed the sinister occurrences. That's cult right there. And you just think, 'how is it possible for a woman to cut ties with the child she laboured for hours to deliver." And you realize it's a control. Mind control in the name of religion. I went on a binge of other cult documentaries and lemme tell you, it's a whole different level. I had thought that Escaping Twin flames was crazy. This documentary was on a fucking different level of crazy. The craziest part, this shit happened in America and is still happening now in the 21st century. 21st fucking century.  If my jaw was on the floor with escaping twin flames, this time my whole head fell off. Cos what!!!! How do you wield control over thousands of people at this level? It's cos of religion, of course, and that promise of an afterlife. If

  Like God forbid. What will I even be using the money for?  Buy mansion? Travel? Eat? Get jewellery? I don't even have desire for opulence so to speak. I just want to crack jokes with my siblings and friends, code and share my work with the world, make enough money for healthcare emergencies, watch movies, read books, do skincare and rest. I have quite a very boring aspiration in life. Again, thank you to social media for demystifying a lot of things. Before social media you would have all these huge aspirations to meet a top star or a celebrity but social media has shown us that most of these people are normal people.  So you see people like Donald Trump persona online, Elon musk and his gimmicks, and you also have the dirty linings of Jeff bezos shown to the public. And you literally have Dangote's buttocks exposed online. So you're like this rich people not different from us after all. So what exactly is the performativeness to want to adore or worship said person. And

I had goosebumps in intervals while watching this Jawan, peak Bollywood Cinema. See, If you were ever a Bollywood fan (core Bollywood not Zeeworld), you'll shed tears of joy for this. If you enjoyed Don, Krrish, Bang bang, Dhoom, Ra.One and the rest of them, you'd absolutely enjoy this. In recent years, Bollywood had sort of lost its authenticity, but this Jawaan brought it back to live. And of course, it's Shahrukh khan, the king of Bollywood. Anything SRK is in is Gold and he is 58 years!!! I've been starved of Shahrukh khan's movies. I've missed hearing the language. I've missed their music and dance loop, their over the top villains, their excessive action shots, the dramatic scenes. This movie brought it all back. And I'm literally dancing along with them 

When I think of happiness, it's not something I actively pursue. I don't think I have to reach for something to be happier than I currently am (except on my shit days). That self-awareness that external things don't have to make me happy is an attribute I'm incredibly grateful for. Like the way I'm disturbing my sisters when I had gone for a staycation and they literally be like - "Chinenye, ike gị gwụrụ mmadụ," "Nwa nkea, arụ adịrọ kwanụ gị." Same way I was disturbing my Briii sister in 2019 which was my brokest year. So even when I eventually scale what I imagine I'd like to achieve, I don't envision them making me happier. I think of them as leaving a little bit of legacy. And of course, making more money for emergency and convenience. I honestly do think we should start seeing making money as a legacy trail, other than something to bring happiness. But even that legacy trail is another responsibility cos everything is vanity. 

This prophetess looked at me with my resting bitch face and told me, "that boy you're seeing right now. If you're not careful, you'll get pregnant." My eldest sister I was with looked at her with a blank face. I myself all but burst out laughing.  But because she looked at me and saw someone that mixed *pink and golden* braids who was totally uninterested in the entire ministration gimmicks the few times I'd attended, she must have thought I was a child of the world. Mama didn't even know I just hated being forced to go to the ministry by my father. This happened when I was 17. Infact, I had not even hugged a male that wasn't family. Me that my family always ask me - "Bịa Chinenye, ọ nwerọdị ebe ị na-aga? Or friends you'd want to visit or something?" Ya kà ọ nọ na-asị pregnancy. At least, she should have mentioned spiritual husband or shit 😪 Na then I began understanding the psychology that goes into most of these them sightseeing. They

 So, I had a withdrawal after watching "Red, White and Royal Blue" and figured I'd finally give Thai BL series a trial. Especially since you'd hardly find a romantic Hollywood movie that isn't too political.  I mean, see RWRB. There was literal politics but at the core as Alex said, it's a story about two people, who happened to be men, who fell in love.  That's how I found myself in the world of Thai series. And luckily, I watched Bad Buddy first which was incredibly helpful in weaning myself off the high of RWRB. Now, Pran and Pat are so electrifying. It's in their hidden yearning looks to each other. They communicate with their eyes, their body language, facial gestures, just everything. Like, you'd even see the subtle glances, immense longing when they're in the presence of others. And when they're on same scene, it's like they're itching to touch each other but holding themselves back. They don't even have as much hot scene

As someone who reads a lot of romance books and absolutely in love with kdrama, the reality of what I'd seen with love couldn't be more polar opposites .  I do envision love as vulnerable, empowering,  tender and being a place of comfort to both parties. Unfortunately, real life riddles you with stories that make you barf at the concept. Of course I know I shouldn't use experiences online as the yardstick of success. But then between Nigerian men, misogyny and all other variables, I'd say the men who fit in the characters of a spec are a dime a dozen. But like Moe Odele says. My standards in men is quite high that I've resolved myself to remain single than compromise. Definitely, tradeoffs aren't set in stone when pertaining to matters of the heart. But the solace is in that acceptance that "yes, it's actually okay to be single. To be alone." Than settle to a draining relationship that leaves you a shell of your former self.

This documentary revealed 2 things to me.  1. Marketing is still the most important part of a business or product. If you get it wrong or just a slight mistake can shift your product mission exceedingly  2. Vaping is very much a vice that's harmful  So, what actually causes the lung cancer and heart diseases from cigarette smoking is the burning of the tobacco leaves and inhaling the combustion with the smoke. That's the deadly part.  Which is why capes/e-cigarettes is a better option. But it's not quite like that. Nicotine is also a huge part of the entire experience of smoking/vaping. Now with vapes particularly, just because you won't really get lung cancer doesn't mean it's not addictive.  Neither does it mean you're free from respiratory failure or other lung related illnesses. More often than not, you may be addicted to vaping. Though, It's still much better than cigarettes and it's very much a vice with potential to cause Injury. Same way some

 I've always been wondering what's my spiritual belief. Cos I'm not an atheist. Neither am I exactly skeptical about the existence of a higher being to term it agnostic. I just don't like the most content in the bible and the doctrines of Christianity So this non-practicing christian is really apt and puts my spirituality in better perspective.  I think I didn't grieve as much when my mother died because I really believed that I would see her in the afterlife in heaven when I die. So now that I am a non-practicing christian, I grieve more because I'd rather there not be heaven or hell. Make everyone just dissipate to the earth, turn to ash and be manure for plants.  So that makes me miss her absence even more as she didn't stay long with me on earth , cos I was barely 10 when she died 

 I used to say that I really really hate small talk. But the thing about hating it was really lack of knowledge on casual topics to converse in. Like really, small talk is just having a discourse around trends or news. For instance, this tweet is grounds for small talk. There are plethora of topics that would be indulged from it Wealth, class, dating, parenting, network, marriage, standards. Just about anything right The image about apple can also spur discussions on innovation, branding, class, and even human psychology  Small talk as I'm learning is being up to date with current news and trends. And then having the ability to infuse them in conversations. Once you grasp these 2 things, small talk is a breeze for real 

 I applied to dozens of publications. Got 1 positive callback. The one that responded rejected me 2 days after. I cried. I cried oo cos writing is supposed to be my shit. Why was I getting these rejections? I was so stressed. I even fell sick, no jokes 🤢  Then out of the blue, a LinkedIn connection I hadn't chatted with since April reached out to me - "Hey Chinenye. Are you open for a technical writing gig?" Ụmụnne m niime Chineke, I cried oo. Real tears of joy. If I dey go church, I for go do testimony in church cos God literally heard my silent prayers. I'm still shit as fuck at networking as I no dey everly go out. Go to tech events? mba Go to meetup kwanụ? nope Go for interview at an onsite company? asị asị Thank God the ones that know me dey put small bread in my tea, ekene dịrị Chukwu 🙏🙏

  This man captured most of my thoughts on marriage.  So for instance. I signed a contract for an internship. The 6 months is almost up and they re-evaluated my performance and want to retain me. And I'd love to stay back. Or I can quit and get another job. My contract doesn't stop me from quitting. On the other hand, I can also get a second job still. Probably do both at once for separate reasons - maybe I love the culture at the first one and want the money for the second one. In some companies, you can sign not to work for another company while others don't explicitly stipulate that. Look, you can replace everything job and double jobs with marriage, monogamy, infidelity, and they still match logically. I maintain - marriage should not be something solely governed by love. It should be a logical decision undertaken by two adults. Sign contracts while at it. Probably re-evaluate it periodically to access performance and all of that. To buy land, house, insurance even get

 I'd come across about 4 of my mutuals on twitter getting their technical articles published and I was envious as fuck! So jealous that I actually muted the word "article" on twitter  Note that I'd learnt about envy being longing/craving for something for yourself, but I was still jealous regardless. So last Saturday I said - "Chinenye, stop whining and write some damn articles if you think you're a good writer." So I wrote the first draft of not 1, but 2 articles that weekend and felt really satisfied. I also started reaching out to the publications I'd seen my mutuals publish on. And I actually got a response from 1 and it's a rejection email on halting publications from guest authors at the moment. But surprisingly, I don't feel too bad about the rejection. Cos better a rejection email than feeling like shit and inaction. Had I kept bemoaning, I wouldn't have done shit. Like just keep feeling jealous and they'll keep writing and ge

Meanwhile, Love is Blind finale was today. I really loved these two on this Love is blind. They got me smiling like a Cheshire cat all through. They're both emotionally mature. None of that exorbitant drama that's synonymous with reality tv.  The babe has a fun, outgoing and really warm personality. Like, her energy is so welcoming. She is a go-getter, and doer. And she knows what she wants, knows how to get it, and absolutely has no qualms going for it, without being excessively headstrong (so to speak).  Guy has this overall gentlenes to him, and is quite self-aware. And not in that way of actively suppressing his emotions (coughs, Adekunle bbn) . He just exudes an aura of calmness and being laid-back. He embodies masculinity without the need to be domineering. He is confident but not arrogant I haven't gotten any whiff of that usual terrible "black American men" attitude *YET*. His diction is on point and he is respectful to everyone. Emotional intelligence?

When television was about coming out, people were against it as they thought it would replace radio. It's 2023, and we still have radio stations.  Even with the advent of YouTube and Podcasting, newsreporters and radio anchors still have their jobs very much active. If anything, YouTube and other channels amplified the efficiency with which they disseminated information. Before the internet and subsequently Google mail, people had to handwrite their letters and wait for months before their post delivered. Gmail and like products put an end to that. But we are still writing letters via email. Even with logistics delivery. It used to take longer. Now, I'm hearing drones are delivery it with speed. Let's back up a bit to writing. Before the advent of the television, copywriters had to wait for months before they can deduce the success of their ads because they did door-to-door mail. Eventually, they made do with television adverts with shorter timespan. Now, Facebook and Googl

Now, let me narrate my little experience in this tech industry. I met a lady on LinkedIn when I started learning Frontend development in December 2021. Barely 2 months later, she called me and said she had an internship opening and if I knew JavaScript so she'd refer me. I didn't, so I declined. She proceeded to give me a roadmap whenever I sent her update on what I was learning. She encouraged me to start learning React immediately I understood the basics of JavaScript so I'd be employable. Also, I was tryna learn a concept in JavaScript testing and chatted up another friend I'd met on LinkedIn. He added my email to a paid course he bought. He is always like - Calm down. Don't force yourself into understanding every topic. Give it time, you'll grab these concepts soon I signed up for 2 coffee sessions with a different guy on LinkedIn. And he gave me some feature ideas for my project which I eventually implemented and impressed my interviewers during my intervie

With due respect to practicing Christians, please skip over this blog post. When I actually started seeing heaven as a joke was the concept of complete forgiveness. Pardon my mere non-spirit filled mind. So, if a rapist or murderer repents on his death bed, his/her sin is washed away just like that? But if the person raped loses their faith, he/she goes to hell. On the other hand, if the person clings onto God, he/she goes to heaven and also sees his/her rapist there??  And the funny part is, most of us are so scared of hell that staying in same heaven with terrible humans is still better than the idea of hell. It's akin to corrupt politician supporters who are promoting his campaign to fill their pockets. Proves again that human beings are inherently selfish beings. As long as ones condition is better, others can go to hell (quite literally). That's why I am not terribly invested in the heaven idea anymore. Surely, I know my mortal logical brain fan never comprehend what the e

So, I just started reading this book - "Forget a mentor. Find a sponsor" and it's just eye opening on the stack differences between mentorship and sponsorship. I do feel every one of us aiming to progress in the corporate sector should read it  With the depicted example, I like to think of Harvey Specter and Mike in Suits If you watched suits, Harvey wasn't exactly about all the advice with Mike. He gives him challenges, and emboldens him to take up more roles. But most importantly, he staked his reputation on Mike. Even going as far as telling Jessica, that if she sacks Mike, he is going with him. That's sponsorship. Not necessarily Mentorship.

So here is my thinking - I post about Tech, books , kdrama, funny jokes, home organising, music (both secular and gospel), etc.  on my status Basically, things that I like. At the core of these values I hold dear - my abhorrence for organized religion, and pro-feminist ideals are inclusive But, you expect that I should not include them on my own status cos it makes you uncomfortable??  I actually do believe that such discomfort comes from a place of self-narcissism. See you, see Joe Goldberg 2.0. You're probably wondering, "How dare she has such contrary opinions, and not be depressed or be lacking somewhat in her life?" Smh. Kindly ask Jesus for forgiveness. Your soul actually does need saving more than mine If someone's values don't sit well with you, mute them.  Infact, block them, if possible. I never DM other people when they call feminism "ndị ifenemenisi," or those that say - "your soul is damned if you don't accept Jesus as your lord an

A family friend reached out to my brother and said -  "Gị na daddy unu nọ ebe a, chọọ Ị hapụ ụmụnne unu nwaanyị ka ha nọdụ na be unu kaa nká" Translation - That he and my father are sitting back, without doing anything as the females remain married She even suggested places to go for spiritual consultation. My brother really struggled with the right response for a respected family friend and ended up replying with just a greeting. The thing with the older generation is that they truly do believe that marriage is the pinnacle of it all, specifically for women My father, thankfully, has never badgered me for marriage other than, "don't go and entangle with someone from faraway. I can't travel on longer routes now that I am older" But the whole marriage incitement is an epidemic.  When Nigerians say "marry early," it usually boils down to these arguments - 1. So you'll look like your kids' sibling instead of their parent 2. You don't want

So, I'm watching Sky castle, a kdrama and this character in the movie cut his wife's credit cards and said he'd stop wiring money for living expenses to her.  This is someone that's a stay-at-home mom, and basically runs and maintains the household Why did he cut off the cards? Cos the woman revamped the prison-like room he called study room for their children. Not for her personal gain, but for their kids And gave her 3 days ultimatum to revert things back as it were. As per head of the household. How dare she change things without his permission? First off... I am willing to die on the hill that "being a stay-at-home wife and mom" is a full-time job that requires full compensation as with every other job. Afterall, the cleaners in the offices, and chefs get paid. However, a woman is expected to do that for free. It's quite unfortunate that there aren't laws that officially recognise STH women's role yet. Maka ya kam ji sị... Even if said man has

 When you feel envious of others, it's really coming from a place of inadequacy of yourself. And I say this as someone that feels envious of others as well. And the sheer fact I am actively aware of this... Means that it's normal afterall. I know that: 1. You are not in competition with anyone other than yourself 2. You should measure your progress based on your past self 3. You shouldn't compare your background to others  4. The pace of everyone will not be same Hell, when I'm feeling the envy, I actually know that I am, and I shouldn't. But I just let myself feel that way instead of tryna quell it completely  So this is how I see it.  Most days I'm happy. Some days are shit days. Those occurrences don't negate the other fully exciting days. So when I have those feelings, I let it wash over me for those few moments. Let the shit days to pass. And then I'm back to normal.