Podcast - Dealing with Despair


Between last week and this week, it was like I was on a dry spell. I had the biggest feeling of despair, so much so that I had to forgo the topic I intended to address this week to just vent. 

Being stuck at home has its pros as much as it has the cons. More so because, there is no stability in the country and so many of us fall into

despair. My experience revealed a couple of nuggets on life and that's what I addressed in this podcast. 



The feeling of helplessness and uncertainty I felt is incomparable. I was unmotivated to do anything - read, write even watch movies. Social media didn't even cut it for me, I wasn't feeling any vibe online. The essays I had intended to complete by the end of the month, I abandoned them all (4 of them). I lost my appetite for food a couple of times. Simply put, I was on a standstill.

I don't exactly know what changed in particular but on Saturday, I was so much on a low that I legit ran to YouTube to watch yoga meditation videos for restlessness.

And I do know where it came from though. This full stop in learning with practically nothing to pass time with. It induces a level of despondency that irks me to no end. 

Oh well... I talked about this and more in my podcast. Link is in the comments.
Enjoy...


Date aired - 29th September

Comments

  1. Unknown29 October 2020 at 07:33

    Dear Chi, I can relate to what you talked about here,the feeling of despair and depression. Its okay to take a break from Social media ,even though its can be difficult. More grace to you.

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  2. Unknown29 October 2020 at 07:39

    The part of unfollowing spree, I am glad I'm not alone on all. Sometimes I go to Instagram and I s6att unfollowing people. BY God's grace ,I should be graduating next year but in already thinking of what's next, I get depressed . I had to share it with a close friend who adviced me so that I I suggest we should always open up so that we dont buckle up our feelings. Its oay to feel the way we feel .

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