Notions (ii)

I guess this is how I look 90% of the time. Not so long ago, a friend asked me why I'm always frowning and that surprised me for a moment because I never thought that my face looked different and I had never felt myself keeping up a front other than I always do, so I told him that It's my natural face. Infact, I added that I don't smile to amuse him the more.

I remember few years ago when my dad asked me why I was so serious and I didn't have answer to his question. I still don't have answer to it but I'm certain that I don't have any particular reason for having a serious look.

It was until recently that I realized some occasions in my life where I'm not included in stories those days in secondary school. Then I was quite oblivious to many things, now I look at it, I feel that my colleagues knew that I might not laugh along with them or won't sit down and discuss such frivolities.

I have also been asked whether I don't feel left out when my friends don't include me in something. Before, when I was an adolescent, I ponder on that once in a while but ever since a little over a while ago, it doesn't bother me a little bit. Like I told him, if they count me out, then the thing isn't of relevance and irrelevant things bore me. Many things bore me, but I'm happy with the few that interests me.

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